Wednesday, October 8, 2008

My twenty week journey back to perfect health - 'THE SUPER CHALLENGE'

Week 10 - Day 3

What's going on in my head?

I am in a strange place right now. Having recently come out of hospital for the 4th time in as many months and right in the middle of my SuperChallenge I felt I had gone backwards. As I sit here today I feel that I take 2 steps forward and 5 steps back. This is because I feel fantastic one day and terrible for two days after that and so it goes.

Of course this plays havoc with a) mental outlook on everything and b) training. My training is done strictly according to the way I feel and although I havn't missed any sessions I am in no kind of routine which makes me uncomfortable...I like routine.

Mentally I'm feeling a little down and have taken a little time out to communicate with someone special...ME.

I have been evaluating what I spend my time on, what I'm doing that is productive and what I'm doing that is not. Then I'm re arranging things so that I'm doing what I need to do effectively and not waste time.

This is not by any means a cry of defeat....far from it, I'm simply cleaning out a few cobwebs and rearranging my mental hard drive.

I KNOW MYSELF and I am able to recognise that when I start feeling like this it's time for a clean out. Although I now have to factor in any down feelings I have as a result of my accident.

Confidence comes from repeated success and I guess what I am believing in, is repeated days of feeling good.

I still absolutely believe I'm well on track to successfully complete my 'SUPERCHALLENGE' and I'm looking forward to every day being a good day just like it was before my accident.

So...if you feel uneasy and can't pinpoint what's wrong...take some time out and spend time with the most important person in your life. YOU. Evaluate where you are supposed to be and go like heck.

3 comments: said...

I know what you mean Dougal, I just spent some time in deep self-refection these past weeks and I came to some wonderful realizations about myself and who I want to be.

You are strong and will pull through whatever challenges come your way!

Love, Lil

Marbella said...

Boy, at last we have some word from you! So much goes on in your life that some days in silence brings to mind lots of things that could be happening. The good and best part is that you are still around, still carrying on and step by step going forward. You really can´t expect to have done better than going slow, and little by little. That in itself is a giant step. Don´t worry. Things will work out when they can and should. What´s important is that you have a huge following all caring for you and wanting you to feel well asap. Do things that make YOU happy. Care for YOU. High 5s on getting this far. Not easy!

juli gets happy said...

Are you okay, Dougal? Strange feeling from not hearing from you...

Hugs, Juli