A week after Op 2, Carl was the bearer of brilliant news. " The infection is gone, you can go home friday."
The funny thing was....all of a sudden I felt anxiety. I had been in hospital for a month and I was afraid to leave. I had to walk away from my comfort zone.
Well friday came as did my girl, to collect me and a very wobbly Dougal walked out into brilliant sunshine and more people than I'd seen in a long while. Out into the car park cars were easing themselves into tight parking spots with decorum but through my eyes I was sanding in the middle of a dodgem car rink with them all aiming at me. It was weird.
Driving home in the pasenger seat I realised how bumpy the roads are...funny how I never noticed that before.
I've been home just over a week now and I get stronger every day. I've shed some tears about my plight only once but I guess I can be forgiven some down times.
The day I came home I could only walk about 50mtrs around the garden (seriously).. on saturday I walked 3.5kms, so I'm really making progress.
My attitude is very positive and apart from having to relearn how to drive, eat, read, walk etc, I'm still the same as I always was.
I do not take lightly what happened and now treat myself with much greater respect. I think this will be a good thing for me and I believe I will end up physically much better than I was before.
I start my new shred with all of you, but from a different place. It'll be a while before weights are included in my training routine but I'm not training for the Olympia so that's OK.
Obviously I can't do any upper body work for now, but I can do lower body and I can walk.
I lost 10kgs (22lbs) in hospital and it was mostly muscle. My attitude ...I'm glad I had the muscle to lose.
So all in all - I'm back from my vacation - just a little bionic ( titanium rods, screws and wiring to hold me together) is all and with a new card in my wallet which will get me through airport search points.
Thank you all so much for your prayers and good wishes, they often brought tears to my eyes...
FOR ME THIS IS NOT THE END, IT IS JUST THE BEGINNING.